Peut-ĂȘtre nous n'avons pas besoin d'amour. Peut-ĂȘtre c'est une aide que nous avons vraiment besoin (Maybe we don't need love after all. Maybe help it what we really need)

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Life is merely a journey to the grave, but to make the journey become a beautiful parade or a dark mourning ceremony is all in your hand.

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May 27, 2012

Perhaps

-just spending some time not leaving the blog empty-

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I was too busy these weekend that I have forgotten about us for awhile. It was good though, since I didn't have to feel like missing or loosing you. But tonight when I was alone, the thoughts of you crept again slowly, trying to find its way back in where it belongs.

I quickly blocked the access, making myself busy with emails and works and papers, but in the end I accidentally stalk you online, and it broke me down again.

So I decided to cut our link even deeper by removing you from my online circle. It wasn't your fault, it was just my way to cure the wound, withdrawing myself deeper, and started the defensive mode again.

And with my friend, we watched some movies together before I go back to the area I was placed, continuing my life, without you.

Perhaps I will succeed. Perhaps I will die. Perhaps we'l never know.

4 comments:

  1. Don't stick to the pain, but also no need to cut the lines. it may take time, but wouldn't staying friends make life ok and fine?

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  2. it's not easy, especially when that person got my replacement so easy. It feels like everything is just a bulls*it.

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  3. How do you know? There is possibility that person might be not strong as you are. Hence that person need someone to rely on when both of you separated. people always come and go in our life. and quote to your statement in this blog "Life is merely a journey to the grave, but to make the journey become a beautiful parade or a dark mourning ceremony is all in your hand" So..do you still mourning about that? Cheer up bro..make your life a beautiful parade :)

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  4. yeah I know. Sometimes emotion took over and I need to withdraw. But when all is well, the parade resumes.
    i have let the person go. not entirely maybe, but accepting the fact that other man have replaced my position so quickly relieves the pain slowly. Even if the person blamed me for this, I see that it is not my responsibility anymore. we crossed-path, so we live our lives by ourselves. We are responsible to our problems.

    thank you,anonymous. the parade starts again. :)

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